As my study buddy Julie and I navigate through our four weekly lessons, themes become revealed in the teachings. The Course has a way of baby stepping students through the material into some fairly deep philosophical terrain. So much so, that I pause with a big grin on my face when I realize how far down the rabbit hole we have gone without realizing it. I am in gratitude for the baby steps.
Coming from a non-religious background I do not struggle with lessons pertaining to God/Source/Universal Law being within us rather than something we need to connect with outside of us. I certainly do have my struggles and that is what inspired this post.
Lesson #75 – The Light Has Come
I packed “Big Blue” in my suitcase and crossed the border for Amma’s Embracing The World Retreat in Seattle. I wrote about that on my blog if you are interested in the experience I had with my seven year old daughter with Amma, the hugging Guru. In relation to The Course, I really hit the wall for the first time since I began. So much so I knew I couldn’t move past the lesson until I “got it”.
At the retreat, I was surrounded by people from all walks of life, gathering together in a hall to experience Amma’s loving energy. Some believe her to be God, some believe she can heal the ills of their life and some (like me) want to bask in her glow of loving energy and enjoy the blessings that come from that kind of love. Receiving darshan (a hug) from her is such a sweet experience, but it can also stir up intense emotions and it DID.
So as I enter my meditation for this lesson: The light has come. I have forgiven the world, simply put, I cannot forgive the world. Feeling of injustice, suffering and unhappiness surface.
Perhaps if I was a high Lama living, breathing and practicing meditation and service for decades I would achieve a level of forgiveness that surpasses my ego, but I am just not there. Not…even…close.
Typically, the lessons and meditations move me in a way where I deeply connect with them. I can feel myself progressing and accepting the teachings and incorporating them into my daily interactions. I just couldn’t do it.
I needed three days with this one. That is the work of The Course. I read and re-read the lesson and could slowly feel myself reconciling my feelings about being in complete forgiveness. I floated through the clouds like a soaring eagle, witnessing the beauty that is our earth. I connected with Source and could embrace its natural state of abundance. I think of earlier Lessons, #14 – God did not create a meaningless world, #28 – Above all else I want to see differently, #32 – I have invented the world I see, #34 – I could see peace instead of this and most of all #46 – God is the Love in which I forgive
Lesson #46 states: God does not forgive because He/Source/Universal Law has never condemned.
We are spiritual beings having a human experience. It is the realization and acceptance of forgiveness as the key to open the door that is the lesson. Every decision we make is an opportunity to put it into practice and hopefully, as we know better we will do better. I see the brilliance in all that “baby stepping” the lessons have been doing.
I recently saw Wayne Dyer speak and he said something so beautiful.
He said, “Think of the sun for a moment. It shines down on the earth and gives life to everything on our planet. Never once, does it ask for anything in return. Imagine what a love like that could do in your life.”
Lesson #75 has cast a light on the depravity of judgement and the requirement of forgiveness in the human experience. It is in love that we are free. And what better place to explore the idea of Love than with Amma.
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Peace, grace and love! Lisa
Blazing Light of Glory, A Study in A Course in Miracles is a co-created and cooperative writing, studying, and teaching effort of Lisa of BloomLisa and Julianne Victoria of Through the Peacock’s Eyes.